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[24 Nov 2005|08:51pm] |
This is that way that i feel!!
I wanna be free, I don't want to be me,
I wanna run away and hide, but instead I hide inside,
of my hurts and pain, I'll never be the same,
I'll put on a smile, But it only lasts a while,
until I go home, and I'm all alone,
and I think of a way, for me to say,
I hate who I am, to go on, I don't think I can,
I wanna be happy, and I hate to be sappy,
but i need you here, because i have a huge fear,
of what I might do, or put myself through,
I feel alone and afraid,my soul is weak and fraid,
I can't feel or even cry, I don't want to say goodbye,
The pain is completely numb, and i feel really dumb,
for feeling this way, These feelings cannot stay.
I hate these feelings, PLEASE go, be gone,
I lay awake til the crack of dawn,
with little sleep, I feel so weak,
I sat here and fought, that very scary thought,
of ending it all, I almost took a fall,
I wanna be free, I don't want to be me,
i wanna run away and hide, but instead i hide inside,
i wanna be FREE
leave me some!
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[08 Nov 2005|12:33pm] |
new journal so comment to be added!!
_xbrokenpiecesx add me!!
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[03 Nov 2005|01:13pm] |
I wont to see who all reads my journal!!
Please leave me a comment and tell me if you read!
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[02 Nov 2005|09:25pm] |
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LIFE??
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[22 Oct 2005|08:44pm] |
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LIFE?? Where to start??
hummm!!! my life as we know it is over!!!! Nothing ever goes right! The worst part starts with Victoria Fraley!!! AKA slut! she knew that i liked Cody and she still went and dated him!!! and i have proof that she is only dating him because I like him, but the worst part is that, he kinda of told me that he liked me!!, and so did two of his friends!! And he sort of flirted with me and got me emotionaly attached, and now that he is dating the "SLUT" i don't know how i can ever feel again for any other guy! and now i think that my trust issues with guys have gotten a lot worse because of this! How can i feel for someone else when i know that i'm going to end up getting hurt again??? But i still have feelings for him even though he has hurt me so much! how do i get over it and him?? should I tell him how i feel about him even though he has a gf?? or should i just let it happen?
the other part of my life that is also horrible!!! is the knee!, grades which i'm not doing to good at!, my grandmother!, Friends!, basketball! im emotionaly unstable?? i think?
leave me some comments!
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[20 Oct 2005|07:11pm] |
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When i thought that life could not get any better it takes a huge DETOUR!!
What do i do now?
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[16 Oct 2005|06:55pm] |
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well i guess i will up date again!!!
humm last Tuesday was our first open gym it went okay...Coach Collins said that i did really good, but i hurt my knee in pratice that day, really bad!!! our next open gym was Thursday, and Ashley Strong was like you are a really good post player!!, but my knee was hurting really bad still so i had Coach CrabTree to look at it because he is premed! and he said that he know it was a pulled legment, and it was one of the worst that he has seen, BUT i can't tell my dad cause he will make me stop playing so i will just have to deal with it!!!...but basketball is going great i actually think that i will get some starting time!!, that makes me so happy!!! well i really have nothing else to tell yall so i guess that is about it!!
leave me some!
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[10 Oct 2005|09:18pm] |
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Shew i think that life is at the worse it could get right now!!! nothing evey goes right for me!!! im to the point that i think their is no reason to keep lifing..but im to scared to end it!!!
i will update about my weekend and today i guess!!
Friday
Allison came over then we wnet to the game, but we got wet and cold so we ccame home at half time and got ready again to go to the dance!! which went very bad!!
Saturday
Allison stay the night again but we did not do anything!
Sunday
Church home then i slept all day!
Today
School then at 5:30 we had open gym!!! and i played so hard!!! i like busted my head diving for the ball but Coach Collins was very happy with me!!!..but Morgan Jones could not pratice because of Volleyball and she got mad and was laughing at these people playing and i was like Morgan you have no room to laugh!!!! we have already started off bad!!! i hope that she plays jv!!!
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I told you how i felt now what?
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[05 Oct 2005|04:05pm] |
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Can life ever get any better??
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[24 Sep 2005|12:55pm] |
Update Time!!!
it has been a long time since i actually updated, but i really haven't had anything to update about!!!!so i just tell you what i have done this weekend so far!!!
Yesterday!!..school then off to the game then after that 5th quarter...we lost the game it was like 47 to 7 or something like that!!!!...Christina, Morgan, and me were walking to the middle school to get on the church bus but something went wrong in my life so it took us a while to finally leave but when we did get ready to leave we saw the church bus leave us so Jon christina's step dad took us and the ride over their was bad because of a certin someone!!!, thats what made 5th quarter suck so bad!!
Today!! got up at like 10:49 been sitting around the house watching Laguna beach and the Real world, then at 4 im going bowling with Tonya, her boyfriend, and Christina...can't wait!!!
how do i tell you how i feel?
leave me some comments</marquee>
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[21 Sep 2005|09:22pm] |
I stoled this from my Puddin
- Go to my userinfo and choose one user on my friends list that is not added on your friends list.
- Comment this entry with that username that you chose. I will tell you something about them.
- Do this on your journal, as well
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[17 Sep 2005|11:57am] |
1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song reminds me of you.
3. I will tell you a movie we should see together.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me, if I can.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your LJ. (and be prepared to answer the question I ask in #7)
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[16 Sep 2005|05:30pm] |
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People Need To Learn How To Keep Their Mouth Shut!!!
not dericted to you Alaenia
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[11 Sep 2005|06:26pm] |
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birhtday dear me
Happy birhtday to me!!!!!!!!!!
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[09 Sep 2005|05:55pm] |
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2 days till my sweet 16
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[03 Sep 2005|07:43pm] |
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Im so freaking tired of life!!!
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[01 Sep 2005|05:22pm] |
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What do you think about the new layout??
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[29 Aug 2005|09:33pm] |
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I really miss Tasha and Melissa...i just got done talking to Melissa on yahoo and it made me relize how much i love her and miss her and Tasha...i never get to talk to them or just hang with them anymore!!!! I love you GIRLS
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[29 Aug 2005|06:59pm] |
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My header overrides are not working!!!..the picture is puarly...anyone know why??
( Overrides )
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